I’ve never been out in public dressed as my female self, except for one time at a party. I was stared at and made fun of the whole time I was there. Ironically, the majority of the party goers were themselves LGB. I guess being CIS is all that matters to some people.
I’ve worn a dress outside the house only once before and only to check the mail. I ran back inside in case a car came along and saw me.
I doubt I will ever dress up and go outside again. The world just doesn’t like gender variant/non-conforming folks; too many people kill us just for existing. It’s hard to be yourself when society wants to kill you for daring to draw breath, for existing.
I’d love to go to the mall and shop for shoes or whatever or just to walk around while dressed up in my best dress and heels. That will never happen, though. I just don’t have the courage to be myself in such a hate filled environment.
So enjoy your hollow victory, bigots. You win.
A Scared Transgirl