So I went to therapy today. . . .

So I went to therapy today and I was disappointed. I was really looking forward to getting a chance to air out my concerns with someone who was going to listen and maybe offer some advice beyond the usual: “Well, that’s the way it is and it is what it is.”

What did I get? “Well, that’s the way it is and it is what it is.”

It seems the entire focus, THE ENTIRE FOCUS is to get me on some sort of mind-bending chemical, as that’s all the dude wanted to talk about.

I don’t want to become some pill-popping zombie.

By the way, there will be a new series of blog entries called Thought Journals showing up from time-to-time. These will be locked posts. Please don’t ask for the password.

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10 Responses to So I went to therapy today. . . .

  1. You want a talk therapist not an M.D. at least that is what it sounds like to me. LCSW or modern Freudian analyst might do more listening than talking. Unless, of course, you are hallucenating voices or visions that say hurt yourself or others, then medication might be needed. Also if someone is in what is called a vegetative state–can’t get up, get what has to be done done, medication is useful for jump starting the process.

    I know that being listened to and being someone’s focus of attention for forty or so minutes is an amazing experience, even that, however, has its limitations. Shop around a bit, you might find what you are looking for.


    • WonderGoon says:

      Hi, Katherine. Thanks for stopping by.

      The guy I’m seeing is an LPC, but he is a part of a state-run institution. This institution requires everyone to see the M.D. on staff there and, at least, talk about drugs. My main complaint with this is that I am not really all that interested in:

      A) becoming addicted to medications of any type
      B) losing myself in the drug “high”
      C) losing my ability to reason and the central core of my being

      Now, I know that drugs might not do all of that, but I am wary of anything that might alter my mental state on a permanent basis.

      I’m not hallucinating or hearing voices, just depressed, with some social anxiety, bipolar, and anger issues thrown in for good measure. Plus some other stuff I won’t mention.

      Thanks for the comments and I hope to see you back again.


  2. altonwoods says:

    I’m glad that you had the presence of mind not to want to “drink the kool-aid”. I don’t want anybody trying out soup du jour recipes with my brain chemistry either! Mostly I don’t think they really know what they’re doing anyway when it comes to helping folks to un-do the bad thought patterns that I believe cause chemical imbalances in the first place. My hope is that you would find these answers somehow. Blessings


  3. Skatha says:

    I year ya, brother! Loud and clear. I struggle with depression too, though not very often. I’m kinda going through a downer period right now and struggle to get through it without succumbing to seeing a therapist. I know this may sound a bit odd, but consider what you know about me before thinking I’m crazy for suggesting it. If you just want to talk to someone and have them listen objectively, why not try pastoral counseling? Just a few years ago I was at the end of my rope emotionally and didn’t think insurance would cover a real psychiatrist, so I sought out clergy who might help me. I wound up going once a week to talk to the pastor of a local Metropolitan Community Church for about six months. It didn’t matter that I am a Lesbian (which I know isn’t one of your criteria) nor did he care that I practice witchcraft. I was upfront about that from the beginning. Seeing Dexter for those few months was a HUGE help to me. I would recommend seeing if there’s an MCC in your area. They are a pretty widespread group so I wouldn’t be surprised if there is one. At least with seeing an MCC pastor (or other non-denominational pastor) you know they cannot shove drugs in your face at every turn nor would there be a requirement to see someone else “just once” for them to have the drug talk with you.

    I know this is difficult for you, but I truly believe in the power of friendship to help us through rough patches. Since I don’t go to a psychiatrist or anything, talking to my friends and knowing they care about me is a huge help. Sometimes moreso than I acknowledge. I’m always here for you. 🙂


    • WonderGoon says:

      I tried going the route of Christian counseling and got the bible shoved down my throat. Maybe your suggestion will work out better, however. I take a look around and see if there is one in my area.

      (By the way, and off topic, but, for some reason, this particular comment get held up by the spam filter. I’m not sure why).

      Thanks for commenting.


  4. Skatha says:

    It’s a SPAMspiracy! 😛


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