Sometimes I feel like the world is slipping away from me. Like my perceptions are twisted so much beyond repair that I will never be able to truly know the world as it is.
Sometimes I feel like I am wearing blinders.
My focus has narrowed, almost to a point, in the last few weeks. I hardly can conceive of What Lies Beyond or how to alter this, in my view, rather limited, narrow perception.
I feel like I live in a box that I know I can bust out of, but don’t have the strength to do so. There are small holes in the box that I can see out of, but cannot expand.
Maybe I have a head cold or something. I would like to think it were something as simple as that. But, what if its not? What if I’ve reached the end of my perceptions? I once postulated that a person is capable of only so much learning, of self-knowledge. I have operated under the assumption that this was not the case, as the evidence I perceived led me to an altogether different conclusion.
Now, I begin to wonder. Is there a limit to self-knowledge? Is there a finite amount we are meant to know about ourselves and no more?
I would like to think this is not the case, as my entire philosophy is based around the idea that we continue to learn about ourselves as we grow.
I still believe this to be correct.
Therefore, I have to conclude the problem lies not with my personal growth, but with my perceptions of that growth. This can be flawed, as it is with a majority of people. Therefore, a simple realignment of my own perceptions should correct the issue.
But, I’m not ruling out a head cold.